The conversation went something like this...
Me: (said with a big sigh and a slightly...you guessed it...frazzled! tone)So, we've been talking a lot lately and a lot of the big things have changed.
Mom: Like what?
Me: Well, we're still unsure about selling the house versus renting it out but either way it will probably be later than we thought because Martin's job is still unclear and so we have to wait to sell the house. Plus, it will just be easier to get to Poland and move directly into our flat which won't be available until July anyway, so we can't sell before late June, so that way we don't have to rent somewhere between moves for too long.
Mom: That makes sense.
Me: Yeah, but that also means that we won't need to come to America for Christmas to be in the country for 6 months this year for tax stuff... so we will be buying a one way ticket instead of a round trip. Which means we won't be back next Christmas, or you know, ever, until we can afford it.
Mom: Are you really worried about that? Is that a big deal?
Me: Well, actually, I'm relieved, I think once we get there and get settled and visit with family and finally sort of start "living" on our own, it would be way more stressful to turn right back around and pack up the kids and come back for Christmas. Confusing for them, and time-zone changes, and complete disruption of any routine... I'm kind of looking forward to living with just us in Poland, and being restful...you know? But, that also means we won't be here next Christmas. What do you think about that?
(this is where it gets good)
Mom: Olivia. Do what is best for *your* family. Do what gives you peace and what is best for *you*. Don't worry about anyone else. We'll miss you and wish you were here, but that's just the way things will be. Do what you need to do. Sounds like you have it all figured out, you've thought it out, you're on top of it. What's the problem?
Do I have a kick-ass mom or what?
|On the day I was born. Me and my mom. I have no idea who that little boy is on the bed with us.|
And I learned something. I gleaned some wisdom from the chat.
There is no problem!
This year is such a blip in our lives. Our long, full, blessed, lives, to date, and God-willing, after.
It's stressful. It's money sucking. It will be full of highs and lots of lows, but dude, what is the point of stressing over every little aspect, especially the one's we can't control? I can choose to dissect it and try to control it, or I can just be positive and go with the flow while at the same time working hard to do what is right and good for our family. And I can pray. I can do that.
“May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be..."
- Mother Teresa